I am freaking out and needing help more than ever

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    I think a few of you already know about my situation when I told you all how I had to decline a big time Federal Government job offer that would’ve paid well because I didn’t want to vaccinate for as I don’t trust the untested vaccine.

    I ruined alot of relationships with much of my family members who were all happy I got this rare opportunity and actually praised me once in my life for getting a big paying job in the government but once I said I wouldn’t vax even for the big job with the big money…..I am now on non speaking terms with everyone even my own mother.

    I just don’t trust the damned vaccine but this job was the greatest opportunity I ever had that I will never get again but I would have to sell my soul for it and I couldn’t do it now I don’t know where I go from here except to keep posting about this until Jeremy or someone else that is big in the G+G community sees this and can think of a way to help me.

    I know I sound foolish and maybe idiotic in my thinking but I just can’t help myself but reach out to Jeremy, Drunk, Krista, or anyone else like them to hear what I have to say and help in anyway if they could?

    I just can’t eat,or sleep or stop worrying and I am going crazy just constantly posting my boo who woe is me story uphere on this website but what else can I do? I have never experienced something like this in my life and I feel more alone then ever because my own flesh and blood family hate me now. And here I thought I was a social outcast growing up with Aspergers and ADHD in the 1990s and early 2000s being unvaxxed in this era takes it to a whole other level I can barely handle.

     

     

     

    #243685

    You made the right choice Ranger. You may be poor in wealth, but rich in mind. Stay true to your belief, it wasnt your family’s decision but YOURS and yours alone.

    #243690

    @TowLiquor

    Thank you for the kind words 😀

    But I worry about becoming like my uncle who not too long ago was against vaccinating and even told others in my family like my mom not to vaccinate because of all the side effects then a short period down the line later….he ended up turning around and got vaccinated. The very same guy who sent out an email to I along with the rest of the young people in the family the dangers of vaccinating.

    My mom says I have a lot in common with him in personality and thinking along with temper I worry what if I in a few months due to the strain of not vaccinating and not taking this big once in a life time opportunity along with scorning from much of my family I give in and take the shot hoping for another big opportunity to present itself. I pray to God and other deities watching me right now that I don’t succumb to the same fate as my uncle’s fate.

    The more messed up part was that my own uncle called me this week to tell me to take the opportunity and jab for the job because I’ll have good job security and the vaccine will only lower my immune system by a bit.

    Truly worry about that down the line in a few months to a few years that I’ll vaccinate just as him as an attempt to get another big opportunity, I’d be a big loser if I did it and I hope and pray I am strong enough no matter what happens that I don’t do it as I’d be jobless chasing a pipe dream of a good job and have a dangerous drug killing me from the inside.

    God forbid this fate from happen to me and I worry now about it happening because of what happened to my uncle. He eventually had a kidney problem along with his job in the private sector being threatened by the mandate along with his own mother getting suicidal that he ended up giving in. I pray and hope I don’t end up like him.

    But with the fear of being homeless and having to lose all my stuff and living in public housing in my future, I hope I can still be strong enough to not give in unlike my uncle.

    There is just so much uncertainty now and I don’t know what will happen next? I hope it is good news for me rather than bad.

    I hope I could be the Luke Skywalker to my uncle’s Darth Vader and I don’t fall to the darkside no matter what happens down the following days, months and years in my life whatever they maybe.

    What is going on now is criminal and I hope to God it ends soon.

    #243695

    I am now on non speaking terms with everyone even my own mother.

    I know how you feel, i’ve been on non speaking terms with my mom multiple times, and i can gurantee she always came back, i can also guarantee unfortunately that’s in no way a good thing as the endless cycle of not talking -> being nice -> screaming and degrading -> not talking again just keeps on repeating itself like a broken record and it’s exhausting

    like my uncle who not too long ago was against vaccinating and even told others in my family like my mom not to vaccinate because of all the side effects then a short period down the line later….he ended up turning around and got vaccinated

    Your uncle, whatever his reasons for changing his mind, sounds like the most sane of your family members, this is just one idea, but if things get too stressed out with your mom, you’re an adult, why don’t you try moving in with your uncle? He sounds like he wouldn’t be mad at you for standing your ground, maybe deep down he’s even proud of you for being able to do what he would’ve wanted to but couldn’t, if you make it worth while, like offer to help him out around the house while he works, he might be able to give you a stress free enviroment where you can think straight and not worry about what your next move will be

    And about this

    The more messed up part was that my own uncle called me this week to tell me to take the opportunity and jab for the job because I’ll have good job security and the vaccine will only lower my immune system by a bit.

    Isn’t he the same uncle who got the vax ’cause he was worried about his immune system? You have a good counter argument, if you’re worried about you’re immune system, why take something that’ll make it worse?

    But with the fear of being homeless and having to lose all my stuff and living in public housing in my future

    And if you can get public housing, take it, it’s a roof over your head while you figure out what to do, public housing doesn’t mean you’ll have to lose your stuff, and if you like to collect toys, that can become work too, if you do some research and find good deals, you can not only buy toys for youself, but buy toys to sell

    • This reply was modified 1 month, 3 weeks ago by DigiCat.
    #243714

    @DigiCat

    My mom just came and told me how my dad rarely praised people but when I got that job he was so happy for me first the first time and when I said no to the job, my dad’s praise was for nothing for I his son because I gave up on an opportunity of a lifetime. I feel terrible, I wish I could make my parents proud of me in a different without me having to vaccinate for a job.

    That would be something if I could somehow get a very very good new opportunity for a job with a new employer without me needing to jab for it then it would be a win win for everyone me and family.

    I wish more than anything I could just get a new once in a life time job opportunity in the near future that doesn’t require me to put anything dangerous into me and everyone in my family would be proud of me again either that or I get a totally new family that loves me regardless.

    I wish that damned once in a life time job opportunity never was brought to my attention by my job mentor at the work agency I went to that found me that job….all it did was create false hope with my family then after I made my final decision, I further disappointed my entire family in ways I could never imagine.

     

    #243738

    @Blood.Ranger, don’t feel bad because your dad praised you, why would your mom bring up something like your dad rarely prasing people? Not to make you feel better, everything you’re describing i’ve lived thru, it’s the classic playbook of a narcissist, if you feel terrible you’ll just be giving your mom what she wants, your dad chose tho praise you, and if this time it was for nothing, you can be sure something better will come along and you’ll gain your dad’s praise for having made the right desision

    #243812

    In your situation If you’re economically dependent of your family without any other relatives or friends who share your point of view about the vaccine to get any work, I see why are you trying to get G+G members attention, I hope they can help you out or at least give you some advice on how to overcome this crisis (maybe getting work from other people on the community), the worst possible outcomes would be either complying getting the vax (bright side: your family won’t be your enemy anymore at least until a similar situation arises) or get homeless (Let’s hope that doesn’t happen).

    #243816

    @Blood.Ranger don’t think that this is a one time opportunity. It’s probably a great opportunity, but anyone that gets a shot at a government job and gets it, will have other great opportunities. I would recommend, just sit down, take a few good breaths and keep yourself strong. Things are going to be tough for a while, be patient, survive and plan to get a great job at a company with less than 100 employees

    #243818

    is the job offer still on the table? if so, take the jab and the job.

    that’s my advice.

    #243823

    Whatever we stand for in this world will at some point be challenged. Whether that is morality attached to the Lord or something more simple like the vaccine decision. So being challenged is not the thing to focus on because those will come. What you do in the face of the challenge is what it’s all about and our lives are defined by such moments.

    The world is full of people without fortitude or a morality. People who will bend with the wind to make it easy on themselves.

    We don’t really know each other, but personally speaking, I am proud of you. Is it because you refuse the vaccine? Not specifically. But because you defined what you think is right and you are sticking to that regardless of your own personal struggles.

    If the world had more people in it like you we probably all would not be facing tyranny right now.

    “If you don’t stand for something you will fall for anything” — Alexander Hamilton

    • This reply was modified 1 month, 3 weeks ago by Vknid.
    #243844

    I wonder what I should tell my grandma about my situation? She was so proud of me for getting the job then I said no to the job because of what the government was demanding of me to put into my body which is a untested drug.

    If you guys remember this is the same grandma that tried to kill herself and I don’t know how to approach this?

    My family dilemma during Covid

    #243845

    @larioxem

    Well if you guys could please help me in anyway get Jeremy’s attention to speak to me that might help. I know it asking alot but what else can I do now?

    #243849

    @Vknid

    Thanks for the words bud 😀

    Just this whole job thing kept making me think of that story where Jesus fasted in the desert and the Devil came and kept tempting him to break his fast but Jesus endured. I’m starting to think about delving more into Christianity more as I still have so much to learn but I thinking to that story for some reason?

     

    #243853

    @Mr.Bidwell

    Well I did get this opportunity through an autistic work agency to help people like me who have Aspergers and other people on the autistic spectrum to find it as they had a motto of hiring more inclusive people like me who happened to have Aspergers and be a racial minority. I can only hope they’ll hire me for something without requiring me to jab next time…if there is a next time.

    I am just so afraid of the vax and what it might do to a person like me who is on the autistic spectrum? I might have my brain melted or something? I just don’t know?

    #243863

    SJWs: Let’s be more inclusive with our hiring (unless those we want to include have a different opinion than us)

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